Don't tell me it was a mistake Or that I should be ashamed Look in her eyes See the tiny woman I named What mistake is there In creating a life At becoming a mother While not being a wife Ashamed of what Not choosing an easy road I chose to love in body and soul Be ashamed of the life we sewed I've done the best I could For my little girl I found her a family Brought her into this world And what about them The beaming two I helped their family Made their dreams come true So tell me again Just what I did wrong Where's the error In creating a love so strong
I'm angry And I'm allowed to be I rage at the struggles within I rage at the struggles around I am the mother I am the child I am the savior I am the destroyer Too many roles Too many fires I am not an actor Or an extinguisher So put out your own fires Play out your own lives Make your own dinner And find your own salvation Today I am angry And I am allowed to be I rage at my fires But today I refuse to rage at yours
Today I want to hold you To cuddle, laugh, and sing To feel a love so true To tell you of wonderful things Yesterday I enjoyed my freedom I laughed, jumped, and played I dreamt of days to come I rethought plans already laid Tomorrow who knows how I'll feel Maybe guilt at yesterday's reveries Maybe I'll pretend this isn't real Maybe I'll revel in memories Someday you'll be in my life Then I could be a mother again Then I could be a wife Then all this will be "way back when"
It's sad to ask another to kiss you It hurts to only hold you in pictures It's hard to know that you are not mine And I tell myself it's all worth it The radio shouts of love and broken hearts The TV teases with other's babies The world moved on without you And I tell others it's all worth it They hold you everyday They look into your eyes They kiss your soft cheeks And they know it was worth it Everyday I swell with pride Everyday I cry a little Everyday I pray for you And I believe you are worth it all
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